"She is so lucky..."

She has it all it seems. A family and boyfriend that love her. & friends that are there in a heartbeat. But never does she realize just how wondeful her life really is...

Yep, that girl is me...

For some reason, for such a long time i've forgotten just how wonderful my life is. I have many blessings i simply pass by each day, forgetting how grateful i am for them.

I'm more than lucky and from now on I vow to not forget how blessed i am.

Eyeopening...for some reason i had a [ah-ha] moment...like the lightbulb just flashed on. It's been off for quite some time now and i'm happy its back on. =]

Love your Life. Live the Life you Love.

Being a kid again...

So i got a Nintendo DS...and wow do i love it! It's pink -- my favorite color. && i got the cutest game ever... Nintendogs. It's great to feel like a kid once in a while. With my 18th birthday right around the corner [july 6] i can't help but feel a little bit anxious. I will be an adult...& that's just a little bit S C A R Y !

Mi Amour

So he is absolutely wonderful && quite a romantic. Beach - candles - blanket - sunset. Romance. <33

the end.

Idaho 3-2-1

DaD found out today that it is OFFICIAL -- we will be moving to Idaho. i'm uber excited. =] =] =] [smiles] I feel like this move is going to be a great thing for me. I need a change in scenery and oh what a change it will be. Delaware is losing what always made it so beautiful. Idaho on the other hand is beautiful [from what i've heard]. I love nature. The hard part will be getting settled...learning my way around...waiting until December when Aaron can move there && finding time to enjoy the beauty of the place while juggling school and work. =] But...this is exactly what i need right now! ♥♥

Slide Along Side

Summertime is truly the best time of the year. I love it! =] Just the feeling of it...it's pretty much easy living. It's the only time of the year that can really give you an excuse for being happy for no reason. I mean...i'm not exactly living it up -- i'm working 6 days a week. But.....just knowing I have no schoolwork to worry about is a load off my mind. Highschool is merely a memory to this girl.

Next comes moving to Idaho and college.<33

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Top 10 Reasons Summertime is love.

1. flip-flops
2. the beach
3. no school
4. sleeping in until noon each day
5. pools
6. tanning
7. new season of Degrassi
8. no worries -- livin's easy
9. mini-skirts and tanktops
10. fireflys

LiFe'S SiMpLe PlEaSuReS

Life is precious -- and there are so many things to be grateful for. Too many people spend their time [time that can never be gotten back] worrying about things that are out of their control. Why not enjoy what is in front of you...the simple things...the simple things mean EVERYTHING.

&& most of all....being yourself =] even if it is just a bit dorky <333

It all seems so stupid now

Wow. I can't believe I was actually doubting our relationship yesterday. It makes me feel a bit guilty now...that I ever said he wasnt what I wanted. I dont know if it is fear enveloping me or if it was just one of those days. All I know is, if I had given him up that easily I would have seriously regretted it -- because there is nobody like him. && now i'm wondering if I even deserve him...

If there is one thing I learned it is...doubts may show up every once in a while...but take a step back and look at the situation from a different point of view. Each time I thought about us not being together anymore, I cried and it hurt my heart to the deepest extent. Doubts arise out of the fear of the unknown -- dont throw in the towl until time has been taken to feel with the heart not think with the head.

"Love is not always convenient, but if it is true love, it will outlast any strain, overcome any obstacle, and grow consistently and exponentially for all eternity."

Contemplation

Today was anything but typical -- it was one of those eyeopening ones that only come around once every few months. You know the kind. They make you think about the past, future, inner emotions and everything else in between. Questions fluttered through my head -- "is this what i ReaLLy want?" "am i TruLy in loVe?" There were tears, smiles, laughing, sighs of relief and just about every other emotion love could possibly produce.

All day was encompassed by bitter confusion. Is HE honestly the guy i've always hoped and dreamed for? Am i holding on for the wrong reasons--to simply not hurt him?

Conclusion: After thinking things through and crying together, imagining how life would be without him was more than a little bit painful. I love him and even though I am young and at times wonder what else is out there, I KNOW that no other guy is going to care about me, love me and put up with me like he does. He's the real deal -- even if it's not always smooth sailing.