Too young to know....?

It becomes more difficult to be young and in love -- i know what i want, yet it seems that behind every corner there is criticism waiting to attack.

it's funny...Aaron and i knew that we loved eachother after only a few days. It sounds young, naieve --what have you -- but we just knew. && now...after being together over a year [i'm ready to take things a little farther --engagement sounds beautiful doesnt it?] He is the one...i know it. Ever since i was a little girl, i dreamed of a guy like him && now that i have him all i want is to take the next step in being his forever. I dont want to be married tommorow -- no -- i want to be engaged. That's right...ENGAGED! It sounds young...stupid...immature? But i have it all planned in my head. A long engagement...give me time to get through college -- save money -- plan. But every time the thought dances in my head, i am brought back to that state of mind -- being the little girl who wanted nothing more than to please her parents, be the perfect little angel they wanted. it feels that just because i want to be engaged -- wait a while to actually get married so that we could be financially stable-- i am bad and a disappointment.

why must we conform to society. our love is real...we've been through so much in the time we've spent in eachothers grace, and nothing was too hard to handle.

i know that with him, i will always be okay. He is more than just my boyfriend, but my best friend and hero. Why is that not enough...?